It's not as disappointing to have followed through and tried to make the move when you have left yourself a back door to use in case things don't go as scripted. The most disappointed people are those who have no back door through which to pass.
It's smart to recognize your limits and to have the resources to get out. Good for you, hpvpaul2. I'm sure you've had the best education you'll ever get just having had the experience.